May 24, 2009

Random Thoughts

I was visiting with a friend this week who I used to go to school with 20 years ago. I can't even believe I'm old enough to use that phrase already - "20 years ago". We were reminiscing about all the crazy ideas we were brainwashed with. The years at this school were not good years. Every aspect of our lives were controlled by the headmaster. The memories that we shared together were only for giving solace to one another because only those of us who went to this school understand how each other feel. But God truly does work all things for good - even this experience.

I got to thinking when I got home about one of the many 'key phrases' the head instructor used to say to us. He would tell us, "Pressure and Conflict build Character". This was ingrained in us. It was their way to get us to do anything we didn't want to do. We were not allowed to question or disagree, just follow. We were not allowed to think for ourselves - that might have been dangerous.

But now I look back and see so many lies that I thought were truths because adults were teaching them to us. And adults wouldn't purposely lead you astray, would they? I trusted them. Anyways, I realized that I didn't buy into that phrase any longer. I have come to learn that suffering and pain cause us to turn to God and that pressure and conflict just reveal our true character - not build it. Character is built under the education, care, instruction and guidance of our parents. Hard work, perseverance and having to give up something (your time, your stuff, your money, etc.) builds character.

Then I started questioning. If this was a "Christian" school (I use that term in the loosest sense of the word) why did they care more about building morals than pointing us to rely on God? I'm afraid that's often the horrible downfall of too many well-meaning "Christian" schools, organizations, etc. Let's just make "good kids". If they question or rebel or disagree - they're not good. But nothing could be farther from the truth. Those kids are seeking answers, seeking a way to fill the void inside them that religion and morals aren't filling.

That was a blast from the past, wasn't it?! I think my brain is still processing this. As God reveals more truths to me it only makes me all the more thankful that He leads me through 'pressure and conflict' and is changing me from the inside out.

*image credit: Creator:Aleksey


Jennifer said...

Love this post Cori! How true and so well stated. Sad, very sad, but oh so true!!!

My favorite was the "principle of individuality"...except for when it came to doing anything that wasn't what everyone else did or was told to do....uuuggghhh...I truly hated that school and the entire freshman year I spent there!

Katrina said...

What a great post...I'm sorry you had to go through such a difficult school experience. I think you hit on a key truth about passing on the baton of faith to kids. When it comes to redemption, it's not what you do, it's Who you know!

Kelly Sauer said...

Wow, I kinda wish I could say 20 years - I've been sorting through so many of those "truths" I grew up believing lately, wondering how my kids are ever going to escape them. Some of it, I hope they'll never be exposed to, but some of it was purely my own fallen nature, my own desire to be *right* and know what God knows. I used to think it was so easy to know all the answers, and it's only be recently that I've been able to admit that I don't know them, and it's okay if God knows them and I don't. I'm learning to be okay with letting Him run the world and live trying to trust His knowledge and wisdom and heart of love for me. I hope that this is what I can model for my children, that the adults in their lives will not just hand them answers or pat clich├ęs that sound like something true without the Truth of Jesus behind them. Okay. Enough for this comment. I just love your blog. And I LOVE your new look! Tell your hubby he did a terrific job! It's so warm and wonderfully inviting!

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